Just Surrender

Life is hard and I know you're trying
You wear a smile but inside you're crying
When will you admit, you'll never make it on your own
You build the walls up all around you
To protect you from the hurt you've been through
I'm the only one who can bring the walls to the ground

Lay down your defenses, put your trust in Me

I can heal your heart
I can comfort you
Don't resist my love
Just surrender
I see your scars
and I feel your fear
Let me rescue you
Just Surrender, Just Surrender

You keep denying my advances
But you'll never be out of chances
My love will follow you no matter how far you run
Let me show you what you can be
what it's like to live this life free
Will you take my hand and let me lead you my child

Lay down your defenses, put your trust in Me

I can heal your heart
I can comfort you
Don't resist my love
Just surrender
I see your scars
and I feel your fear
Let me rescue you
Just Surrender, Just Surrender

Open up your heart and let me in
There's nothing left to fear



It's amazing how accurately this song speaks to my life. Im sure that im not the only one whose heart just resonates with these words and cant help but feel a taste of that freedom that is promised. I feel like so many times, as Christians and as people, we always see God as this powerful being who is going to punish you for failing to obey Him. And so, when we fall, we, like Adam and Eve, hide away from God because we are ashamed. We shut Him off and try to stay away from anything that will remind us of Him. Why? because we believe the lie that God's love towards us is dependent on our obedience of his commands or the depth of our faith. This is one of the biggest and most widely accepted lies that exist in the world. It makes sense though right? I mean doesn't it make sense for Him to punish us? why would God ever love us when we do everything against Him? Because He is God. Some of you are probably thinking, what does that even mean? So what? Here is another perspective, HE is not human. Human love is dependent on the circumstance and the person. Our love is ever changing. But God's love is constant. It never changes. God doesn't love us because of who we are or what we have done, He loves us because of who HE is. That, to me, is one of the most comforting aspects of my existence. The fact there is an ALL-POWERFUL being who will love me no matter what I do. Does that mean I can just do whatever I want because he loves me? No, I would only be acting in contempt to His love. BUT, I am human. I do fall. God knows that and so He sent his Son to die so that I could have LIFE. But so many times, I find that I run back to the chains of my sin. And that is why I posted this song, because I hear God speaking to me through it. I hear him say, "You keep denying my advances, but you'll never be out of chances. My love will follow you no matter how far you run. Let me show you what you can be,what it's like to live this life free. Will you take my hand and let me lead you my child?" There is a joy in my heart that I cannot describe. Joy that He still gives me second chances, that He will ALWAYS love me. I am reassured.

Thank you Lord for the great love with which you love me. Undeserving as I am. Lord, take me and use me. I surrender.

My Plea

June 24, 2012 Lord, you know the state of my heart and my faith. I do but at the same time I don't. I'm so lost and confused. I have run away from you and chased after the world. I was disappointed and discouraged because of what I saw around me. Now that I look back, I have probably sinned just as much or worse. I wasn't dwelling in your Word and that is why Satan was able to attack me so easily. I had no defense or offense(against him). I was proud. I chose to trust myself instead of you and then I blamed you for everything that went wrong. God, what a fool am I? I've lost the love you instilled in me. Lord, my prayer for this summer is that you break me and truly humble me, completely. Deeply impress on me the Power of your Word and that of Prayer. Teach me what it means to worship in Spirit and in Truth. Lord, you have been so faithful to me, so gracious. I am undeserving. To think that you sent your ONLY Son to DIE on the cross for ME after KNOWING that I would turn my back on YOU? That's amazing. Help me not to lose sight of my ultimate purpose. Thank You. ...the first entry in my Guide journal. Anyone who knows me somewhat well, knows about Deerfoot Lodge. I'm always talking about that place. Well I had the opportunity to be a part of a summer long, counselor training program called the Guide program. It lasted from June 23rd to August 18th. 8 weeks. 20 guys and 4 leaders. Countless experiences. One amazing summer of growth and change. Well, it was the first Sunday of the summer, and all twenty of us were given a red, hardcover journal about the size of a novel with our names on it. It's a treasured possession of mine. I figured I should start off with what I want to get out of my summer at Deerfoot. And now, four months later, when I read this prayer. I cant help but marvel at how beautifully God answered this prayer. He truly is a God who cares and apart from Him there is no satisfaction.

The Beginning

I created this blog like two years ago but I never really posted anything on it. I remember my reason for creating this blog was because I noticed that some people were creating blogs and they seemed to be getting a lot of attention and I craved that attention. Shallow? you bet. That is who I was. Let's be real though, aren't we all, in a way, yearning for attention? searching for something more? But things have changed since then, a lot. I'm not creating this blog so people like me or give me attention. This is simply a way for me to think, to make sense of things that have happened. To ponder life. To change lives, to give hope, to show love, to tell my story. The story of how the Great King affected my life. So if you like it, keep reading. If you don't, that's okay too. I must make it very clear that this blog will be what some label as 'christian'. I believe that it's not just a religion. It is something much greater. In fact, I believe that Jesus Christ influences and is the center of everything in the world. So check out what I have to say. It's a blog about life, about God, about an average guy who deals with and looks at life in a not so average way, just trying to find his place in the world.